My brother Jonathan died by suicide 33 years ago at the age of 26. I was 16 years old at the time and remember him being full of life, a people's person. He loved spending time with his young siblings, nieces and nephews and he enjoyed his job caring for children with special needs. He loved to entertain people and had worked as a Pontins blue coat but he was particularly passionate about his work as a children's' entertainer and was training to be a magician.

To me he was just my big brother and sadly I never knew the man that he was.

Kirsty’s daughter and my great niece Lola died 4 years ago at the age of 12. Lola's life had barely begun, yet she brought so much love and laughter to her family. Like her great -uncle, she was also a 'people' person who was exceptionally caring toward her young cousins. She was a large part of her local dancing community, demonstrating an exceptional hard -working attitude with a fearless and determined streak in whatever she decided to do. Lola was hugely talented with great potential and had a very bright future ahead of her

Jonathan had his whole future ahead of him whiles Lola's life had barely begun but both came to a very sudden and abrupt ending in the most cruelest manner... a moment of anger perhaps or a carefully considered plan?

We will never know.

We are a family with two tragedies, almost 30 years apart raising the same questions that will never be answered.

Two years ago in memory of Jonathan and Lola, Kirsty and I completed a challenge to walk continuously for 24 hours. We completed 40 miles, taking only short breaks throughout the day and night. This year we are setting off again on the 25th May and will be joined by friends Lea Mcarthy and Danielle Warrington.

Lea and Danielle are both good friends of Kirsty's and were close to Lola. They have been cought up in the devastating Ripple Effect of suicide and have supported their own children through grief after Lola’s death.

The four of us are extremely excited to be completing this challenge because we want to continue to raise vital funds for PAPYRUS and to raise awareness of the issues around suicide and suicide prevention.

We want people to know that 33 years after Jonathan’s death, suicide remains the biggest killer of all people under the age of 35.

We want people to know that 200 children of a similar age to Lola die by suicide every year.

We want people to be aware of the ripple effect: the impact that 1 suicide will have on individuals, families, friends, communities, colleagues and more.

We want to get people talking about suicide.

We want to reduce the stigma that is still very much present and we want people to feel safe in reaching out for support and guidance and hope.

We want to encourage people to ask questions of their friends, family and colleagues.

We want people to know that It is ok to ask.

So please support us on our challenge. Every pound that is donated will help to save a life. But conversations can save lives too and we ask that you share our story. In doing this, we will gradually break down the taboo, we will empower and educate families and communities so that our young people and their families are supported when they need it the most.

PAPYRUS is the national Charity for the Prevention of Young Suicide.

Suicide is the biggest killer of young people under the age of 35 in the UK, every year over 1800 young people took their own lives. PAPYRUS provides confidential support and advice to young people struggling with thoughts of suicide, and anyone worried about a young person through their helpline, HOPELINE247.

Every £5 raised can contribute towards a life-saving contact to HOPELINE247. Your donations really are lifesaving, thank you.