Hi there,

This time 10 years ago I was pregnant with non-identical twin boys. Olly had just turned one when we found out we were expecting twins at the 12 week scan. It was such an amazing moment, and for the next couple of months there was so much excitement about it all. But at the 20 week scan our worlds changed forever. Finding out that there were major complications and that one of our little boys hadn’t grown as expected, was the most devastating experience imaginable. On the 16th June 2012, Rory was born sleeping, having died in utero. Very unusually, our other little twin boy was not born at the same time as his brother, and I managed to hang on to him for another 5 weeks in utero. There was so much hope for him, especially getting past the 28 week mark. The sonographers even named him ‘Hope’ on all the scans that we had in that time. I was an inpatient at the John Radcliffe Hospital all those weeks, away from Olly, which was also extremely difficult. And trying to deal with the grief of loosing Rory whilst still pregnant with his brother. Then two days after being discharged home, on 16th July 2012, Daniel was born prematurely, at 29 weeks gestation. Despite the hope, Daniel had undetected and unrelated complications and he died the following day in the neo-natal intensive care unit. And our lives were shattered all over again. 

It has been a long road. Grief is tough beyond words. But I have found silver linings amongst the darkness, many of which revolve around the charity Twins Trust, who helped me so much in those early days after loosing the twins. I have met so many amazing, brave, courageous bereaved mums, and dads, some who have become very special friends. I owe lots to them all. 

Taking on this challenge and walking alongside some of these friends, as well as lots of other bereaved families from all 9 charities, feels like a really fitting way to mark ten years since loosing my twin boys. It would mean so much to me to be able to raise some money for the Bereavement Support Group within Twins Trust, who I volunteer for, to enable the continuation of the amazing work this service provides and to say thank you for everything it has done for me over these past ten years.

I carry Rory and Daniel in my heart everyday. And try to imagine them through the smiles and laughter of Olly, Jack and Archie 💙💙💙💙💙

Thank you so much for your donation 🥰