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I am doing a sponsered bungee jump to spread awareness of pancreatic cancer, a cancer that has no early detection and only symptom I had was jaundace.My diagnosis was poorly differentiated adenosquamous carcinoma of the ampulla stage 4 advanced.I was to be considered for a whipple ressection and 6 months of chemo to follow, for any chance of survival .I spent months in hospital before and after being poked and prodded feeling like a human guinea pig ,at the time I did'nt realise how seriously ill I was or that I could potentionaly die.I went from being happy and content with my family and somewhat taking life for granted to suddenly life crashing in on me and my world falling apart.It was decided my only option was for me to have an operation to remove the tumour,the operation would take 9 hours and they explained what would happen,but before I could have the operation there was a health and fitness test to which I would have to do.Fortunayely for me I was fit and well to go ahead with the operation,to have it booked in on my birthday 04/06/2014 at 08:30am.I remember waking up after the operation and looking at the clock it was 18:00 that evening and being wheeled to HDU.I remember being in there and having a really bad time of it horrendous pain ,tubes coming out of everwhere and terrible hallucinations not to mention the poor nurses who had to put up with me,worst experience of my life.I wouldn't wish any of what I had to go through on anyone,most of the time I cried and begged the nurses for more pain relief  and for the two tubes I had one down my throat into stomach other down nose and tubes everywhere else just couldnt cope.Eventually I got better but then having chemo was another ordeal in itself side effects something I could'nt cope with,reduced dosage but still couldnt handle it.I thought long and hard and decided to end treatmemt advised not too as it was my only chance of being cured, but physically and emotionally I had enough ot was a hard decision but I had to think of me ,someight think I was selfish especially as I have a young daughter to think of ,but thats all I did I didn't make the decision lightly and I always say unless you have been through it you will never fully understand ,I did what I had to do and I believe I never gave up some people may think I did,but I did what what my body wanted and that was I did whether I pay the consequences of my actions I still stand by my decision. My future I dont know I dont take it for granted anymore,I dont make plans I just live for each day I thank all those that were there in my past I truly thank them for being there and supporting me back then and thank those in my future who love me unconditionaly my son kieran my daughter grace and all my friends who have been there I love you all xxx I am doing this sponsered bungee jump as pancreatic cancer action is a charity that is close to my heart and to help in any which way I can ,to spread awareness of this deadly silent killer my motto:NEGU :)