It breaks my heart to say unfortunately we said goodbye to our baby at 19 weeks & 4 days of pregnancy on Sunday the 25th of October at 2:47pm. We are still coming to terms with everything but channeling his strength along with the unbelievable support we have received from family, friends and my work family. Me and Josh are both so thankful and find it hard to put it into words how grateful we are.

Even though the past few weeks have been the most painful, my pregnancy and giving birth was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life. When he was born he looked absolutely beautiful, peaceful with the most perfect face ❤️ the hardest part was letting go. We left with empty arms but our hearts full of love ❤️ Forever our sleeping prince and shining light in our hearts Rory Joshua Newman 👼🏽💙

The midwife team and consultants at frimley were absolutely incredible and vital for myself and Josh to get through the past few weeks. Rory was born in the Rowan Suite and we spent three days there in total.

Overview : The Rowan Suite is used by our specialist bereavement midwife team for those parents facing the most difficult period of their lives. The suite is next to the labour ward, it has to be for practical reasons, but this does mean that you do run the risk of hearing other mums in labour and also hearing those first new born cries, which can be heart breaking to hear. The Suite requires some enhancements to make it as pleasant a place as possible for the parents who are using it.The two main things that will help are air conditioning & sound proofing, two things you won't immediately notice but would be very grateful for. This is what we are fundraising for.