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I am raising money on behalf of CHAS by doing a tandem skydive. 

One of my biggest fears growing up was heights and the falling from that height. As I grew up and had a poorly child my biggest fear changed to the fear of losing a child.

 Sadly this happened and Noah passed away at 19 months old . CHAS helped support us before Noah passed by helping make memories, when Noah passed by giving guidance and support but also a safe and loving place for him to rest until the funeral and then afterwards. 12 years later and CHAS are still there when I need them.

Please show your support by donating even a tiny amount to help other families who are going through similar experiences to the one I had. 

Below is a poem I was given my first Mother’s Day without Noah. It’s his journey in life in which. Rachel House played a very large part.:

Dear mummy, how are you? I've been thinking of you lots today, And thought that I would write down some things I really want to say, There's so much I want to tell you since the day we had to part, So I think that what I'm going to do is to go back to the start!

It seems like such a long time ago since you and daddy knew That day when you went for your scan and saw not one of us but two I remember hearing you and dad so silent then you smiled When u realised that you were blessed with two instead of one child

As we grew inside you mummy it got quite cramped in there But when Logan kicked me in the head I'd just pull his hair And although there were some scary times and the scans you had and such You looked after us in your tummy mummy and we loved you very very much

And then the doctors told you it was time for us to come The truth is we just couldn't wait to see our lovely mum And when you came to see me in my little box and bare I looked up and saw my amazing special mummy standing there

Then the journey started that the four of us went on From hospital to hospital you and daddy stayed so strong The hardest part I think was when me and Logan had to part We had been together for so long but we are in each others hearts

I remember when Mr Danton fixed my heart to tick so well And every day you came over mummy to look after me yourself I'll never forget how much you cared and what you did for me There's no love stronger in the whole wide world, than yours for Logan, Emilie and me!

So then it was the bumpy road for a year and a half or so There were a few really scary times as you and me both know I hope you find some comfort mummy in helping me survive When the day I was hanging on by a thread you kept me alive.

And then the nine hour wait you and daddy had While the doctors and the nurses helped me not to feel so bad And when you came to see me though it was tough at times it was not Like when my oscillator made me shake and wiggle to the bottom of my cot!

Then a very special day that we never will forget On Christmas Eve they let me home so bags packed up and we were set What an amazing day we had Logan, daddy you and me All of us sitting opening presents around the Christmas tree.

And then came my little sister so cute and soft to touch I hope she knows her big brother loves her so very very much And every time that Logan and Emilie are having fun and play I'll be there right beside them every single day.

So up to Rachel house we went just daddy, you and me What a brilliant time we all had, the nurses, centipede and me We spent some magic moments in that very special place It was so nice to be with you every day mummy to see your pretty face.

Then I got home but things didn't go quite the way we planned But it was so nice to be in my own house and bed with you holding my hand You tried so hard to help me mummy with love and cooling my head But it was time for us to go back to my Rachel house bed.

While I was lying in my bed with you and daddy there I felt so happy with you lying beside me stroking my fuzzy hair And then you told me to be strong but if I had to go You would understand and your love for me would still grow and grow and grow

Then you picked me up mummy and snuggled me in tight As we listened to Fireflies as the day turned to night And as I had to say goodbye it wasn't to bad you see Because I was in my mummy's arms and there was no place I'd rather be

Now after my amazing send off the days just seem so long But I think you are amazing mummy for staying very strong And at least I can be with you every minute of the day And spend lots of time with my brother and my sister as they run and laugh and play

So I'm coming to an end now mummy but only in writing this Because I'm with you every single day to give you a hug and kiss And although you cannot see me I'll always be right there You did so much for me mummy and now it's my time to care

I love you and miss you so much mummy and I know you love me too I'll be with you, daddy, Logan and Emilie all your lives through But your my number one mummy and my bestest bestest friend All I'll look forward every single day to being in your arms again.

Love you forever mummy

X Noah X