This is incredibly hard so I'm going to keep it brief until someone else can write this for me.

As Jaxons mum, Jaxon made up the best 3 years, 9 months and 8 days of my life. It's almost unbearable to get by knowing you've lived the best days of your life and also seen the person you loved most in the world, that deserved so much more, lose theirs. 

Jaxons birthday is one of the most challenging days of the year. Every day is challenging but knowing on a certain day I should have been celebrating another year of his life, watching him grow up and go through the stages and changes of childhood but not getting that, leaves it as a day to be dreaded.

This year will be the second birthday he's not been here for after he passed away aged 3. So I've vowed to turn this day of dread into a day that he will be celebrated regardless of my feelings. I will use what he taught me and be who he made me to raise funds for a charity close to our heart.

This years chosen charity is Rainbows Childrens Hospice. Childrens shouldn't die but they do and all we can do is try to make sure they have beautiful memories of life and the most comfortable ending, which is what Rainbows do. They support the child and their family to make memories with care and support along the way. 'Brightening short lives' as they put it.

All funds donated go directly from Just Giving to Rainbows Hospice for Children and Young People.