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Thanks for taking the time to visit my page. Please read my story and help me raise money for sands charity. 

At 39+4 weeks pregnant after my waters had broken me and my husband were so excited. I had carried our boy for 9 months and now we were finally going to get to meet him. When we arrived at the hospital the midwife was checking our boys heartbeat but couldn't find it i didnt panick at 1st but then she got another midwife in and then a doctor i dont remember much after them telling me our baby boy had died. I was allowed to go home and keep him in my belly for one last night. We also had to break the news to my husbands daughter ruby who was  at home waiting for her baby brother to arrive.  The next day 6/3/19 i gave birth to my little angel Aitch Allan he weighed 6lb11. I was so shocked and confused that my baby had died i was too scared to hold him because i knew once i did i wouldn't want to let him go but thanks to SANDS charity they provided us with a cold cot and a room in the hospital so we could spend time with him, we stayed with Aitch for 4 days we got to dress him in his little outfits, bathe him cuddle him and make memorys. All our family and friends came to meet him and see what a beautiful boy he was. Ill be forever grateful for those days and the memorys we got to make in such a short time. SANDS also gave us a memory box with a lock of his hair, hand and foot prints and 2 teddys one for Aitch to cuddle and one for us to cuddle and when it was time to leave eachother we swapped the teddys so we always had eachothers smell. I can't look in the box its too hard but knowing its there gives me comfort. Having to leave Aitch at the hospital was the hardest thing ive ever had to do, never did i think i wouldn't get to take him home and watch him grow. 3 months on and im still needing SANDS they offer helplines and constant support. I feel its the right thing to do to help raise money for the charity that has helped me through this. I want to know im helping  other familes that are going through the heart breaking experience of losing a baby. I also want to do this to show my baby his mummy is brave. X