To The Pink Army,

My journey began in 2011 after being diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and BDD Body Dysmorphic  Disorder by the GP. After five visits to AE. I collapsed and was admitted into hospital .Generally, it is a blur now of eating just crackers, soup and weighing daily “I look FAT”  I remember getting heart palpitations and feeling as if I had cars shooting up and down my body each day I was tired all time and couldn’t walk. My teeth started to crumble away and hair fell out.  I couldn’t go into the changing room with the 3 or 4 fairground like mirrors looking at me .I don’t remember being in AE and think scary for everyone involved. During my month in hospital , I was tube fed, given vitamins with three meals . The sound of machine was a mission grinding noise every day and became relentless. I passed my time in hospital helping other patients when the nurses were busy. I only complied to get out of the hospital. So the vicious circle carried on with crackers, soup and weighing after getting out.

 Recently I have been readmitted into hospital for #mentalhealth that was described from some impatient as worse as being prison I do not want to go back I luckily wasn’t watched all the time but rules were different and very strict.

The clock which in turn made you mentally think about food all the time like clockwork and even set my alarm craziness. I learnt food surrounded this and listening to others sharing stories was eye-opener their discussions on eating disorders but it was when someone was readmitted into the ward had said she tried to commit suicide least 5 times quite as if it normal thing to do with pictures it brought about quite harsh reality and wake up call “I don’t want be in here, How do I get out I kept singing the Whitley song “More than Life” radiating inside I just need to escape so that is where #recovery came into play I was no longer going sit back in side lines. This was me and this was my time to be free

I decided to take on  Walk and Talk London this year I hope
it can make a difference to someone which would be #awesome #WORDS have the
#POWER to change the world and #educate the future and hope by doing this walk
it would bring about more #AWARENESS of #EATINGDISORDERS #SUPPORT #ROCKON🤘
#PINKHAIRDONTCARE. 👍💜