Please don't forget to type you wish to run/walk when donating. 

AT 13TH SEPTEMBER, PLACES AVAILABLE FOR RUN OR WALK- SO PLEASE TAKE PART, THERE IS STILL TIME - TELL YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS.  TROPHIES AND SPOT PRIZES TO BE HAD. 

This is so difficult. I do believe Nathan's suicide could have been prevented if the right help had been available.This is the reason Papyrus means a lot to us. . We now believe he had undiagnosed Asperger. Nathan was a happy child so full of fun. A gentle teenager a good son. 

Instead of writing a story I will give a little insight of how my son must have felt, knowing what we know now. 

INVISIBLE

I look round at life and see, I sit
on the side lines and listen

When I talk it is only a little, no
one pays any heed .What will be my destiny.

My mind constrained in a net of my
own making or is it nature’s cruel joke on me.

I want to break free. I want to love
and laugh to join in a task, drink and dine on beer or fine wine.

To learn and grow in confidence and
shine

I feel invisible

No one sees me,

I am the loner who wants to talk but
can’t, need a friend who understands, to be patient but not to be a saint, I
don’t want them to hold my hand.

I don’t know where I am going,

 I cannot see a future.

I don’t want to be felt sorry for and I
don’t want to be a burden.

I just need to find a way in life maybe
someone to help me or me to help myself that’s for certain.

I feel invisible.

No one sees me,

I talk to myself often and try and find a way to sort out my mind. Is this sanity or is
it madness. Who can I talk to, who will understand, am I so different.

I am 

the person who has systematically built a wall

So tall…

and hard to reach, to hide away from taunts and ridicule or the fear of being ignored again.
Yet at any time a brick could topple and fall. The hurt I feel is so damaging,
my mind in a whirl, I torture myself everyday. I want a way out of this misery.

Make my self invisible,

 So no one can see me .

Please if anyone feels like this I beg that you don’t keep it to
yourself, I loved my son so much if only he could have talked to me. Yet I
understand he needed a friend. Some one of his own age someone he could
trust.  There are people out there who
would welcome you with open arms. So please do not huddle the worries and
anxieties to yourself. There is always someone who will help. Please ask, there
is no shame in asking. You will prevent a lot of heart ache and tears to all
the people who love you.

And all those children/teenagers/adults out there, look around you, can
you see that person. You know who they are. Please ask a question, please make
a little conversation, make them feel wanted but not used. Life can be cruel
enough. These children/teenagers/adults find it so difficult to what others
take for granted. You may save someone’s life.

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