I was 38 weeks when I found out my daughter had died in the womb, my hole family was excited I was expecting a girl we had a boy already we bought all the the clothes hospital bag packed and ready to go I had reduced movement went to the hospital put on a monitor her heart beat was fine i was 36 weeks I was sent home! But booked in for a scan at 38 weeks. Our baby iugr which ment she was suffering from groth restriction ( we didn't no at the time ) the morning of the scan she was moving the scan was booked at 4.10 pm we went and was told something I hope no one has to ever experience there was no hart beat I screamed and cried to go home that they was wrong, they wasn't then the realty set in I was told I had to be induced and give birth, the hole scan room heArd me when I walk out 3 other ladies were crying for me the scan got was in bits we was taken in a lovely room and was told I was swallow a tablet to help induce labour the rest was a blur I remember sitting out side labour word thinking I need to tell pp, when I called ppl they was expecting to say I had the baby as i was due any day it was the worse to hear it in other people's voice the tablet kicked in and I gave birth to our very pretty girl lunch time the next day I was in shock she was georgeous just looked like a "normal" baby but a bit small we spent the day with her then had to leave with out her.

My body still reacted the same same as with any other labour my Milk came in I was sore and I had all this baby stuff also a funeral to arrange which was the 2O of December right b 4 Christmas.

At the hospital we was given a box from sands it had a hand a foot print kit and bag for a lock of hair teddies etc we did all this at the hospital it took along time to go and look at the bits in the box but it bring so much comfort to us even now with out that box I don't think I would have copped and the support sands offer even now I can call or email when it's to much and there is always someone there. 

Poppy was a huge part of our lives even now she would have been 5 this year and wanted to do something amazing for her.

She was only here a short time but changed me so much for the better she is so loved and missed so pls help me by supporting sands coz thanks to them I have something I can keep forever .

R.I.p Poppy Lisa Beacon my georgeous daughter this is for you xxxx 

Love mummy xxx