So here I go again..doing crazy thing for a good cause. Couple years ago I jumped from the plane to support animal charity and this year I am taking a leap to climb Ben Nevis- the highest mountain in British Isles. I never completed full climb before,so no pressure. 

You might wonder why I am doing this...I will tell you a wee bit of my story (never ending one) with mental health illness and depression. 

I had depression since I was abut 12 years old- big trauma and certain events triggered something in my brain which made me feel sad, anxious and  self-doubting permanently. I used medication, was seen like a crazy person and had 3 suicide attempts in my life. Somehow I survived and managed to get out from that toxic environment which was the main cause. Entering my adult life I never really thought how my mental health was affecting my studies, work or relationships. I was simply confused and I believed that I just sucked at life and 'adulting'. 

Over the last 6 years I have been working on myself a lot and I finally came to awareness that I have to start managing these feelings and emotions and find coping mechanisms which are actually work. So, I started yoga, cycling and hillwalking. Then I looked deeper into mindfulness and meditation. I was hooked- it worked (well,sometimes) and I was becoming more aware what triggers and causes certain emotions and my behaviour. I started to control and prevent bad things from happening to me and thinking more positively about it all.

But..it's still there and 'I am work in progress' kind of gal. The last couple of years it's been life changing- I am finally in touch with my inner self and staying more in present than ever before. Also I started doing things I love with more dedication and passion- climbing and bouldering it's one of them. Being outdoors and doing extreme activities is giving me some adrenaline (you can call it 'death wish' sometimes) and also makes me more connected to the moment as well as enabling me to have free head space to gather my thoughts. 

The story is not finished yet and there so much more to talk about, but for now I am focusing doing this mindful climb to Ben Nevis with other folk who are struggling with mental health problems. I will be dedicating my personal mantra and meditating while completing the climb. I feel grateful for this opportunity and I am ready to take a big leap towards more positive approach to life.

Now to the legal bit...Donating through JustGiving is simple, fast and totally secure. Your details are safe with JustGiving - they'll never sell them on or send unwanted emails. Once you donate, they'll send your money directly to the charity. So it's the most efficient way to donate - saving time and cutting costs for the charity.