Hello 

I have signed up to run London Landmarks half marathon in March 2019 for Tommy’s the baby charity. I would greatly appreciate any contribution. I’m pretty hopeless at running so this is a huge challenge. 

Many of you will already know that this a charity close to our hearts. Unfortunately my husband and I suffered a silent miscarriage in January 2017. 

We found out I was pregnant in November 2016 and we were overjoyed. We decided to have an early pregnancy scan at 8 weeks as it was right before Christmas and we wanted to be able to tell extended family why I wasn’t drinking! I’m sure most of them would of suspected if we hadn’t haha. Plus I’m pretty rubbish at keeping our pregnancy’s a secret. 

All was well, baby’s heartbeat was strong and everything seemed great. By this point I had all the early pregnancy signs, morning sickness, swollen boobs and a rather sensitive nose (not the best when you are a staff nurse). 

Like any expecting parents we had planned all our hopes and dreams for our baby. We had picked out names, bought clothes and spent most of Christmas saying next year we will have a baby with us. 

Friday 13th January  2017,  we had our 12 week scan. I decided not to take the day off work and just pop over to the maternity unit. I met my now husband and we went into the room bouncing, we couldn’t wait to see our little baby again. We never imagined anything would be wrong. 

Unfortunately not long after sitting on the bed the sonograther said ‘I am ever so sorry I can’t find a heartbeat’. Our whole world changed. The rest of that day was just a complete blur. Everything we had dreamed of had been taken away in an a second.

The following Wednesday I went in for surgery to have our tiny baby removed. That whole week was just the most surreal feeling.I had never felt pain like that before. 

Fast forward to June 2017, we had recently got married and decided to try again for a baby. Unfortunately loss makes you question everything. Why is it taking so long to conceive? Why have I stopped ovulating? Will i miscarry again ?

 I emailed one the midwifes at Tommy’s and received a lovely supportive email back. It was just the what I needed. Something so simple but so effective. 

We now have our rainbow baby in our arms and couldn’t be more in love. 

Not only do Tommy’s support families through loss but they are also do vital research into miscarriage, still birth and infant death. So that hopefully one day 1 in 4 women and their families won’t have to experience this pain.