This is the second page of fundraising for help with accessing life saving trauma therapy (I didn't renew the last one in time but I cannot believe it passed its goal).

This page is a page for anyone who wishes to help me gain further access to getting what I need. Some medications I am on are not prescribed by the NHS and so I am having to pay a lot for them, as I need them to counterbalance the effects of EMDR. Things will get worse before they get better.

I have 0 family support and am estranged. I managed to buy a laptop with the money saved last time and I am so so grateful for anyone who donated to that cause. I am now 3 or 4 sessions into EMDR, and it is taking a toll on me. I am chronically ill, getting no help for my symptoms due to constant mistreatment and any money donated here would go towards physiotherapy and things like acupuncture and body work or, if i cannot cope with physical help due to agoraphobia, more therapy to finally get the medical help I need.

I received a lot of negative reaction from my abusers the last time, even though I am 0 contact beyond them paying for private psychiatry - I understand I am privileged that they are doing this for me but they don't have the money to do this and I would not survive further dealings with the NHS so this fundraiser is also a back up for me to continue getting the psychiatric help in the ways I need it.

All I will say this round is that anybody contributing to this would be helping me to heal from life long abuse, and the retrieval of child memories triggered by yoga in 2020, which I have been completely incapacitated with PTSD since. I can barely leave my house due to agoraphobia and I am in constant pain with fibromyalgia, which is linked to this trauma. If I had to go into what I experience on the daily, I'd have to write a whole book.

Thank you to anyone who has read this and invested in me and survival. I am very shocked that so many people seem to want to keep me in this world and I thank you all for your support.