half termwedfeb282018 ibterjames hadplanned to go on a ride with the road bike teamlexia was at a friends house. jsmes decidednot to go on his ridede he popped to the shop came home he walked throughthe door handed me a bottle i took it in my right hand passed ito my left but it just dropped to the floor, this was the first sign that stsrted bells ringing in jamess head. he looked st my face and strted movin me roundto the sit on the sofa s I tried asking what was wrong james said my speech was slurred he then grabbed the phone dialled 999 saying iwas havinga stroke. we waited for the whenthe ambulance arrived they did routine stroke checks stick my tongue out lift my arms smile.they loaded me into the ambulance but it wouldn't startoetheu hd to call alternative means of transport the north yorkshire Air Ambulance whichlandednd in the field opposite our housecanaamd they rushed me toJamesCOOK hospital where I had a scam to confirm the stroke I was also told the stroke had caused swelling on he brain which may require operating on my next memory is Monday however sunday 4am james received a phonecall to say we operate now or she dies. the operation was a craniector I have now reached a point where I need to have an operation t put a plate in where the skull was removed. this entails shaving my hair again so I am shaving my hair off to raise money for north Yorkshire air ambulance who are a charity based organisation and rely on donations to continue their amazing lifesaving work. I alsoam giving a portion of donations to a charity calledPOSCH, parentsof pecial children. this parent led charity suppotted me in hospital where i stayed until the end of mra leaving 1week before lexias 5thbirthday. The girls and james supported mewhile i kearnt to sit stsnd Andwalk againtaking great joy as i remastere these . been great since mrelease fromhosputalthey poschare an amazing charity supporting parents with children with additioal needsrunning courses that are much needed and not supplied by the county. self james andI appreciate any donations and these amazing charities will appreciatet the also thank younow james works reduced hours to get the girls t snd from school. Fitting ia nearly full days eork then coming home to do house work. care 1to1 with me and tke of the girls its hard work being a full timecarer. let slone adding in children. ONe with additional needs and house work.he gets no tine to uneind smd relax for himself yet he carries on and cares for me full time. He waits snxiously by his phone incase he gets z call to say ive had a all. And latrly uve had infections that cause me to fit. Which doesnt make the stress levels any easier for snyny of us.even our eldest stresses snd mskes herself sick with stress which increases jsmessstress load. Its hsrd work he gets little reward. Except to see my smsll achievements. Walking further or mire steps each dsy. Able to help more round the house even if uts jyst putting the plates in the dishwasher small things wgich lighten his load snd get me closer to myself again.