My boy my beautiful boy, you are home not in way you should be. Life still feels wrong nothing has changed your room remains exactly how you left it, it still smells of you. Your sofa hasn't changed it still remains exactly how you like it. I still can't believe this is our reality something I know I have to accept but how do you do that. Daitton is so big and laughing and vocalising so much you would be so proud. We have your pj masks playing for you I've held you so tight and daddy has too. We love you so much ethan

Ethan is home with us, not how it should be but at least ethan is with us. Hoging the TV pj masks we said we can watch TV as much as he wants tonight. We sang our bed Tim song to ethan we have kissed him and held his hand he has his toys with him as usual. Its heart breaking but comforting all at the same time. Your day is tomorrow ethan and your smile has reached far you personality has touched so many hearts, that they all want to come and make your journey so special and I pray it is. We are broke without u ethan but I know you are smiling

Oh my boy my baby, its getting closer and closer for your special send off. People are coming together to give you something special but as the day get closer I'm getting scared knowing you physically won't be here. I can still hold your hand and kiss your forehead and on Tuesday I won't be able to do that anymore and I'm scared I miss you immensely. Cherish Funeral homes are taking good care of you in your forever bedroom but I'm scared to loose the physical touch of your hand and being able to kiss you. I love you with all my broken heart