Everyone one please dig deep to help fund research to cure cancer. I am not going to lie, part of me does think what is the point it cant bring my mum back, but with the statistics so high someone else I love will get this.

Whenever people say they understand how I feel because they have lost someone, I just don't believe they can.

What my mum  went through what we went through as a family you just cant understand. My mums brain tumour would push on different parts of her brain at any given moment, we didn't know we couldn't see, her pain receptors had been so messed up they would send messages that she was in pain when she wasn't and we would try and treat her but it was untreatable as it wasn't real, so you could not calm her down. Depending on what the brain tumour was doing, she would have the wrong messages and then the right messages sent out to her body. Muscles would work then they would just stop, then start again. You never knew how the day was going to go as who knew what this horrible thing was going to put on her that day, that hour that minute. Towards the end mum nearly left us quite a few times but my mum being my mum she would grab a bit of air and try carry on for us. This really was the hardest thing, I was willing my mum on to stay alive and be with us but how could I want her to carry on like this.

 30th May myself my brother and my dad fell apart as my amazing brave sister chanted a song to my mum as she went to sleep. Words can not explain how proud I am of her for that and I know mum is to. Dad, Hay, Neil and me (and the kids) were everything to mum, Hayley took the bat from mum and reassured her.

I have briefly spoke about what we went through but reading it back it really doesn't come close.

Thanks for taking the time to visit my JustGiving page, if you can sponsor anything please do I don't want this to be you.