Thanks for taking the time to read my story ❤

My name is emma, my husband and I had been trying for a child for years, although we had a child each to previous relationships we always wanted one of our own. My husband worked away at the time and was 6 wks in Iraq and 2 wks home. Unfortunately I found out I had endometriosis and polysistic ovarys which was making it harder for us to fall pregnant. We also had 2 failed attempts of ivf.

Back in November 2012 I found myself holding a positive pregnancy test 😀 I couldn't belive my eye so done another 3 test just to make sure. I contacted my doctor straight away and my pregnancy was confirmed.

A few days later I began to spot a little so got book in for and early scan. This is were my emotional rollacoaster started. I was scanned and told that i was far to early to see anything, the midwife made me take a pregnancy test which came back as negative 😐 I believed that it was due to all the water I had drank prior to the scan. But the mid wife assured me that I could not be pregnant.

Upset and so so confused I headed home and stopped off at the nearest chemist to pick up another pregnancy test. Once I got home I took the test straight away and as I guessed it came back positive. I phoned my doctor straight away and got appointment that day.

The doctor done their own test and once again it came back positive. The doctor also clarified that my test at the hospital could of been due to the amount of water I had drank. He then made me another appointment for a few wks time to go back and get scanned.

A wk past and I started to feel really unwell. I had an awful pain in my shoulder and had started to spot bleeding again. I phoned the hospital and was ask to go up straight away. Once again I done a test this time it came back positive, they also scanned me and also once again I was told it was to early to pick anything up. By this point I thought I would b around 4 to 5 wks. I was told to wait 2 wks and go back for another scan.

Those 2 wks dragged by and I still didn't feel great but just put it all down to being pregnant.

The next time I went back to the hospital I was told I had miscarried, all there was was an empty sac. I was heart broken 😢 I was then given the choice of having a dnc or take a tablet and letting everything come away from me naturally, I decided to take the dnc. I was given the date of the 17th of December.

Something wasn't right I just had a gut feeling and went to see my doctor, I wanted a second opinion. He booked me in to get another scan as I just wanted to be absolutely positive that I had miscarried. Unfortunately that scan also came back as the previous one had, i miscarried and all that was left was an empty sac.

I went on the 17th of Dec as planed for my dnc, all went well well as well as it could. My husband was still in Iraq at this point which made it so hard as although I had my family round me I missed him so much. But he was due home soon as he would be back for Christmas.

Christmas came and went as well as new year  and my husband returned back to Iraq 😢 although all this time I felt and looked pregnant. Everyone was worried about me as they really thought I was having some kind of break down. I knew my body and I just knew something wasn't right. But I also knew that I had had a miscarriage and a dnc and there was no way I could b pregnant. My family kept telling me the way I feel was just in my head.

I tried to put it out my mind but it was always there till on the 15th Jan 2013 my friend looked at me and said look at your tummy u look pregnant, now I'm very slim always have been so to have  bump this size was not normal. I needed to find out wot was going on. So once again I took another test this time I got a very strong positive result. WTF is going on....!!! by this point my head was so confused I didn't know wot to think or belive.

I went to my doctors straight away and once again he confirmed that I was pregnant. He said he had heard of hospitals making mistakes and the pregnancy could still be going on but I had had a dnc how could any baby survive that?
As I was at the doctors i strangely got a phone call from the hospital. Apparently they wanted to see me as soon as possible in fact could I go straight up.
Me and my mum jumped in the car and headed up. Were I was told belive it or not, due to my doctor being on holiday over Xmas and new year my dnc results had been sat on her desk and nobody had looked at them till she arrived back at work. The result showed that no sign of pregnancy was removed by the dnc the only thing removed was a clot of blood. My doctor asked me how I was feeling and had a feel around of my belly. She told me that my pregnancy was on going but looking at me felt like everything was fine. She booked me in for a scan the very next day. As she was going to be off that day she phoned and asked if another doctor would attend the scan as well just to be positive everything was OK.
Now I was excited could this nightmare now turn into all my dream coming ture? I could hardly sleep that nite i have never felt nerves and excitement like it.
16th January 2013 there was my baby bouncing about and doing back flip as to say look mummy I'm here. I was in tears couldn't believe wot I was seeing and neither could anyone else in that room that day. The doctor was telling me it was a miracle for God. I was 11 wks and 5day ☺
I was told I had a split uterus and the baby had been hiding in the bottom part all along.
At the time I questioned that, as I had never been told this before. I had a child already and had ivf treatment so why had this never been mentioned before. The doctor told me she didn't know why it had never been picked up before. But I didn't care I was just so happy that everything was fine and I got to see my baby.
As soon as I got in the car I Skype my husband and burst into tears of joy once he finally realised they were tears of happiness he soon joined me. I couldn't wait to tell everyone my news I wanted to shout it from the roof tops. My little miracle was going nowhere.
A week went by and I had my first midwife appointment, she knew nothing about my situation or what I had been through to be honest I felt like nobody knew anything from the very start, as not once were all my notes in front of any doctor I had seen. Anyway that day I felt hellish, I hadn't felt great for a while but this day was worse. I still had the pain in my shoulder, felt hot, tired and dizzy but put it all down to been pregnant the midwife didn't seem concerned so didn't think I needed to either. After I left the midwife I went back to work and got on with my day. My dad picked me up from work and took me home. I was so glad to have got finished I felt awful and he could tell I wasn't right as soon as he seen me. I told him I'd be fine and would phone if I needed anything.
When I got home I made tea and feed my son and lay on the couch. My son liam who was 14 at the time, was in his room playing his playst. I remember eastenders had just finished an I needed to go to the toilet. As I got to the top of the stairs I felt like my skin was on fire I shouted for liam and then I must of past out. As I came round I was in my bedroom and by this time my mum and dad were here as liam had phoned for help. I was so hot I started taking my p.j's off I just couldn't handle anything against my skin. I could hardly breath I was so scared I was losing the baby.

I was taken to hospital by the ambulance and can't remember anything from there.

I had had an ectopic pregnancy, my baby had been growing in my tubes all along and now 12 wks plus nobody had picked up on this.
My family were told if there was anyone that should be at the hospital to get them there asap as there was a very high chance I wasn't going to make it. I was bleeding internally and had lost 3.5 pints of blood. My husband was in Iraq when he was told and managed to get the first flight home. Not knowing if I had made it or not until he landed.
Fortunately I was very very lucky, I believe I had someone looking over me that day. Although I healed physically the mental torture that i went through will never leave me. 💔